Monday, February 13, 2017

Respect The Journey

You've heard the saying.  Everyone is on their journey. Well, life has taken some twists and turns for me and I have been forced to reconcile myself to that!  For many years I was so judgmental, always thinking I knew what was best for the whole human race.  I set my life and family up expecting a certain outcome.  Never did I expect that my whole plan would not be followed by a tribe of independent, strong- willed people.  I believe that as a mother I tried to instill in my children self confidence.  I did succeed in that department.  However, I wanted to decided what direction that self confidence would take them.  They all had other ideas.  I have felt like a failure as a Mother because of things that have happened or just what is.  I was holding everyone up to my standard of success.  I can’t express the suffering I have been through because those that I love have set out on a different journey than what I wanted. I have cried and yelled and pretty much ruined my own life because of the control I wanted to have. 

After some years of pain I started to feel a change start to happen within me.  I knew there had to be a better way to live.  Could I control what others were doing?  Did I have the right to tell them how to live?  Even though I gave birth to four of these people, did that give me the right to tell them how to live their lives? Slowly, and I mean s l o w l y. I have let go of my previous expectations.  I am opening up and accepting what is…and I am fascinated by it.  This isn’t the journey I chose or expected for sure.  But the lessons and insight I have opened up to is amazing.  What a difference in my happiness when I just accept and love everyone for who and what they are. I’ve let go of the control I wanted to have over others, and started to focus on my own life.  I realized that I was holding my family up to a measuring stick that didn’t fit.  I was using the wrong measuring stick.  When I take that stick away and just look at them for who they are…they are amazing!  Shift your paradigm and everything changes.  

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